Hi
I found out unexpectedly I am pregnant I am 7 weeks and I am 35 . I was on contraception but I had come off for a brief period of time to do blood tests on my hormones. My partner of ten years I had told him this and that we must use condoms he flat out refused. I then spent a lot of time refusing his advances because he wouldn't use contraception and we didn't want a baby including me. One day I gave in obviously looking back I did so because I was ovulating and you know hormones. I went and took the morning after pill however it didn't work. I then found out I was pregnant I obviously told him and he was not happy he immediately said get a termination. Which I initially felt was the right thing too, we have 4 children and are currently over crowded. However, due to delays in getting appointments for termination advice etc time has continued to go on and I started to feel doubt. I told my partner this and he told me he would leave me if I kept it. He is being incredibly cold and is treating the whole thing as if it is nothing. Telling me I am over thinking it and its not a big deal and to just to get it over with. I am feeling confused not just because of the pregnancy but because of him and I am struggling to distinguish what it is I actually want, because I now feel like he is trying to push me for a termination. I know it would be difficult to have a baby alone and live in the current house I do but I know mentally and physically I could cope. However, I am not sure how difficult he would make life if I continued on. I honestly do not know how to go forward, part of me feels like keep the baby and get rid of him once and for all... and if I terminate he may be more likely to try creep back into my life. I have no idea what it is what I want to do and its even worse considering that if I have an abortion I will have no moral support whatsoever cause he seems to think it will be a walk in the park. I feel so angry because I feel like he was mostly irresponsible and now I am left dealing with the consequences Any advice welcome