Don’t feel any sadness or negative emotions after medical abortion. Is this normal?

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So this story goes back 5 years. I got pregnant at the wrong time in the wrong place with the wrong guy and the second I saw the 2 lines I knew I don’t want to keep it. I wasn’t mentally, emotionally or financially ready for a child. So I booked the appointments and everything and because of my slightly high BP the clinic ( was it the sexual health one?) didn’t want me to give the pills and let me go home, instead I was sent to the hospital, to their clinic just in case any medical problems happen.
So I had the first appointment and questions and more questions and offer of the psychological help and the lady was so so nice but the whole time I was like - nah, I’m good thanks. So I got the pill, went home and after 2 days I had to be back at the clinic for the second pill and stay there.
So I went there like I’m going to a normal medical procedure - like having my bloods drawn or X-ray for a broken arm. Like completely emotionally free, like I’m standing in the line in Asda. I had no regrets, no second thoughts, nothing. For me it was just a normal day.
And even now after almost 6 years not once I have thought about it. I mean sometimes it comes to my mind that I had it done or if I see or read something about it but I don’t think in terms of regret or how would the baby look like, was it boy was it girl, like nothing. Like I said - for me it was completely formal medical procedure. I never cried, never had sad thoughts about it, nothing.
Is this… ok?

Hi, I think everyone is so very different.

I had a surgical abortion and didn’t show an ounce of emotion at any of my appointments.
I thought they must be thinking I’m such a horrible person especially as I’m a mum already and in my 40s….I thought woman my age don’t mess up like this and then certainly don’t have abortions but looking on here I realised I’m not alone.

Yes, it's very normal as you had no doubts about your decision.

This is totally normal. I had an abortion at aged 26. I was 100% clear I did not want a baby then. I was so clear that I felt no emotion about it. I wondered if that may come and hit me one day. It never did and I'm 43 with two children now who mean everything to me. To reassure you further - I had a miscarriage in between my two children and it floored me. I was devastated. I wanted the baby and the whole thing was different. I very occasionally reflect that I could have an almost 20 year old now, but that's about it. It was the wrong time and I made the right call. You are normal