So two days ago I found out I was pregnant.. again.
A little bit of background.. I have two children (5years old and 3 months old). My partner also has 3 children which we have here regularly, between us we have 5 children.
I gave birth in February, stupidly we had intercourse 3 weeks later (in the moment you don’t think of the consequences) afterwards I thought right I better start taking contraceptives again. Since then I have taken the progesterone only pill.
Anyway, about a month ago I had a nagging feeling to do a pregnancy test. The result was negative. At this point I thought, phew I’m out of the water. A few days ago I had a feeling to do another test just to make sure following a comment a family member made. The test was positive. My mind is now all over the place. I’m really struggling will all of this. I know I won’t cope having another baby physically or mentally, it wouldn’t be fair on my children either if that makes sense. It seems the only option would be a termination (abortion). However, there are problems with this the date of intercourse would put the pregnancy at approximately 11 weeks. This would rule out home abortions wouldn’t it? Which means I’d have to go into hospital for the abortion? Meaning I may be in there a whole day or even over night?? My daughter is exclusively breastfed, I can’t express and I don’t want her to have to have bottles or formula. I can’t leave her for that long.. I am assuming she won’t be allowed to come with me either even if my partner is there too? Once I am in would I be allowed to leave the room to meet him and feed her? Can I discharge myself straight after the second dose is taken on hospital grounds? I have so many questions, I feel like I am going crazy. I feel like if I can’t be at home or have access to my daughter to feed her then I am left with no choice but to continue the pregnancy which I honestly feel is not a good option for myself or my family at all. I feel absolutely terrible about all of this.
I called the clinic this morning as they need to refer me, in my area you cannot self refer. I have been given a consultation for the 1st of June.. over a week away.. this is the soonest they could get me in. Obviously this is a time sensitive matter.. the pregnancy would be around 12 weeks by then.. and then it’s a case of fitting me in for the termination.. it’ll be approximately 13 weeks by then surely? Morally and practically at this point I don’t think termination is an option for me?
I really cannot leave my daughter for the whole day.
Has anyone else been in a similar situation? Has anyone been able to bring a breastfed baby with them or have the termination at home after 10 weeks??
My brain is in overdrive at the moment, I can’t stop overthinking about the whole thing. I have no one to talk to really which doesn’t help at all.
Any response to this will be greatly appreciated! Thank you all in advance!x