Hi,
I am 29 years old, been with me partner 12 years, due to marry in 4 months, we have a holiday booked in 6 months, and honeymoon booked for 9 months time.
This is my first time being pregnant, we are and have always been so careful. We recently moved into our first home a few months ago, and we had said already at the start of the year if anything happened we wouldn’t continue the pregnancy and that we will talk about children next year, purely because we have soo much booked and planned for the next 9 months and I myself wasn’t 100% sure i wanted children at the moment, I was 80% sure I didn’t.
Saturday was a shock, I was one day late for my period, but had the symptoms of my period coming.. and then we found out we were pregnant.
Im fully aware it’s my body my decision, but we both feel that our previous plans are right and that currently a child isn’t our plan, and a few weeks ago I didn’t even know if I wanted children.
I have been so emotional since, crying, feeling guilty about the act itself, but I’m confident I’m doing the right choice. But yesterday I had the thought, if I’m this upset could I regret this? But I think it’s more the thoughts of in 9 months time, when we jet off to honeymoon which is the expected arrival date, I will then just have the “ this is what it could have been like” moments.
I have an initial telephone consultation booked for next Monday, with no idea when I can start the medical abortion at home.
im a nurse working 13 hour shifts, so I’ll need to tell work to get the time off , I am anxious, embarrassed, nervous, scared and feel so guilty and sad for what I’m doing..
Isit normal to know your doing the right thing. But be so upset and no that I will look back at key dates and think, oh baby would it been here then, and probably think / imagine how life then could have been.