So today I got a massive shock and learnt I am pregnant. Im peri menopausal and actively preventing pregnancy.
I feel so torn and upset I haven't told DH yet since he is still at work.
I have 2dc already and had a rough time to have them with multiple miscarriages and a stillbirth.
Since covid hit my family badly we've moved into a rented property and in quite a bit of debt.
We have no childcare/family support and DH works crazy shifts and often away which has impacted on me working, now I'm out the baby stage and excited to be finally starting back work next week and life was finally going to get better.
I've always been pro-choice but always thought through my struggles if I ever found myself unexpectedly pregnant I'd keep and let fate decide but now I feel termination is best if I don't miscarry first.
We simply can't afford another baby, we don't technically have space for one in home or cars. I've finally found my feet and getting back to work and out the house and been feeling great about it.
I feel so sad but sure not continuing is what's right for my family but I'm worried my DH won't agree, abortion only became legal in his home country a few years back so culturally it's not something he'd consider also I think he might be a little excited by the idea of another baby.
I feel so tired and emotional