I have a few days to decide, keep my baby or d&c

[Bubblemachiene]

I am 10 weeks 1 day just been for my booking in app but told midwife I am having second thoughts due to my relationship. I am 99% leaving after some verbal abuse. I told her this, she said I deserve better and gave me the number for bpas. She said give it a few days then give them a call.
I already have 2 children by this man.
We have tried for this baby as things have been good up until last week. We did separate in the past but he'd promised he had changed. Now I'm back in sq1 but pregnant. I know ge will try to worm his way back into my life once the baby is here. I also worry about access, if he wanted the baby for the day or overnight this gives me anxiety too. As he never used to help with the other 2 as babies but I know his mum would be pushing for access to the baby & she is not very hygienic.

Thank you for your reply @RecycledKettle those are some good points to consider.
He has been in the past verbally abusive but after a short separation he claimed he was deeply sorry & changed. He's not been abusive to the children but did to me last week infront of them. And I realised he's not changed at all. He's just been on his best behaviour the past 3-4 months. .his mother used to look after the older dc when they were little but some things I didn't like such as her house is unclean, she was shouting at my little boy with my then 3 month old on her knee when she didn't know I was walking in. It upset me as I'd never exposed them to shouting before and my baby was startled.
Other stuff such as jamming my sons finger, not washing hands just careless stuff. So sending a newborn round with me would break my heart.
Plus I'd be a single parent of 3, also who would be my birthing partner? It's a lot of mess and stressing me out.
Also the thought of spending all summer being pregnant will I be able to give my kids a good summer on singlehandedly.

Also @RecycledKettle he's not really good with babies. He used to discourage me from breastfeeding & from holding them too much. He used to tell me to start creating some distance and get them used to being put down, not held too much. All of this I completely disagree with BTW.