So I've fallen pregnant and when we were dtd I was under the impression an unexpected pregnancy could happen, but if it did we would make it work.
I've asked my husband in the past how he felt about having another one and he said it wouldn't be ideal. I've also said if you really don't want one more to have a vasectomy and he refused. I said myself at the time I would not have an abortion if I fell pregnant and he said ok.
So we have one ds who is 3 and due to start school in September and now I have fallen pregnant. I told him and he said to have an abortion or he would leave me as he doesn't want to go through struggling to make ends meet when we are finally in a good place financially. He can't see how it would ever work and it would screw up our plans for this year.
So now I feel betrayed by the one person I should have trusted. I understand his reasons but can't believe he has put me in this position.
He has now said he will get the vasectomy done but I feel bereaved as I know I will lose my only chance at having a second child.
I know either way I am screwed if I abort I will never forgive him, but if I keep it I can't survive on my own and we already have one DS.
Sorry for the rant I know the wise thing will be to have an abortion, especially with such an arse of a dh 
but how will I even move on?
I keep thinking of it as my baby already and feel sick to my stomach.
But then I know I also have to prioritise my ds too. 