Hi, so sorry you've found yourself having to make a tough decision too.
I've had 2 abortions after having my 2 children so can empathise with how it feels to find yourself with a surprise pregnancy.
I am completely pro choice too but had always believed i wouldn't be able to bring myself to actually have an abortion - until I found myself unexpectedly pregnant after what we had agreed was our family complete.
It's such an individual situation but although it wasn't an easy choice I knew deep down it was right for us & the children we already have. I spent a lot of time thinking it through but kept coming back to abortion being the right choice for so many reasons & fortunately we were both on the same page. So in that sense I didn't waiver from our decision but that certainly doesn't mean i didn't find it incredibly hard & emotional to go through.
I love my two children more than anything in the world but felt so differently about the subsequent pregnancies. I didn't feel attached to them & tried not to think too much about what they may have become once born, not what sex they'd be etc.. it helped me cope I think.
Having said that, if I had only had one child then there's no way we'd have aborted a second as we wanted more than one child so would've made it work even if it was sooner than planned - in fact that kind of is what happened with our second, not entirely unplanned but definitely sooner than we were planning.
It must be so hard when your head & heart are telling you 2 different things & my only advice would be to not rush a decision, 6 weeks is still early so you have a bit of time on your side to make a choice.
I found the abortions hard to go through but I absolutely don't regret it, I'm 5 months down the line now & know we made the right choice.
Sorry I can't help make a decision for you but hope sharing my experience helps in some way 😊