Abortion need to let it out

[Krimson]

I am currently 10 weeks pregnant and also have an 8 month old so by the time the baby comes, there will be a 14 month age gap.

I have decided that I can't go ahead with this pregnancy. I have hypermesis and have been in and out of hospital. I find it physically impossible at times to care for my baby and have to rely on my mum and husband has to take frequent time off work and the situation isn't sustainable. I'm exhausted as the baby has been ill and not sleeping and some days I can't eat or drink. It's taken such a toll on my relationship, mental and physical health and I feel close to breaking down.

And even though I have a good support system, I've found the adjustment to motherhood incredibly difficult and suffer from severe PPA/PPD. Having two children so close would break me, I know it would even with all the support and everyone telling me I will cope and just get on with it.

I feel sad my child will probably be an only child but I feel thats all I can cope with. I just can't go through with this and need to let it out.

Sending you strength and support

You have clearly given this a lot of thought and are doing this for the best interests of your child.

I hope you also have some real life support and get to see your GP as soon as is possible 💐💐

You're doing what's best please don't worry. Have you rang any clinics? I'd ring all 3 and see which does funding in my area and would give an appointment ASAP. Hyperemesis is hell. I had an abortion at 8 weeks back in June too.

Sending you support. You will need a surgical abortion at 10 weeks so prepare yourself for that. Suggest you contact your GP or clinic asap. Good luck to you.

Thinking of you. You need to do what’s best for yourself. Is mums have a guilt and tend to put everyone first. Wishing you all the best x

Just to update I had my abortion last week and every night I think about how relieved I am to no longer be in the position I was in. I cannot fathom how I would have coped with two under two. In fact I can't see any reason to ever have another baby. Everyone has been so supportive as well which is great.