Hey, I'm literally going through this right now, I took my medication today.
In regards to pain, everyone is different but it is painful for me, I usually have quite painful periods so was kind of expecting similar but its worse. Saying that though, it's now 6hours later, and its bearable and the worst is over!
Have hot water bottles or heat pads, I had two and used one around my hips and one on my tummy.
Strong painkillers! And despite the advice given to me, I used ibuprofen too and it helped me to pass the embryo and eased my cramping.
I struggled to feel confident in my decision, due to loving being a mum already, but I knew it was the best thing for ME right now.
Do not doubt your own strength and capability, you wouldnt of even considered doing the MA if it wasnt a possible RIGHT choice for YOU.
You are the only person who matters in this situation, so trust your own thoughts and feelings. It really helped me to write down my reasoning, whenever I felt a little confused, I read them again.
I will say, now I have gone through with it and it's in progress, I do not have any of those "wrong decision" feelings. I feel relieved, especially now the pains easing, but more so because I dont have this confusing fog over my mind anymore.
I know now I can start to focus on the life i want to make, before trying again some day :)
If you need a chat, message me anytime.
You got this, and you WILL be okay.
Whatever you decide xx