Unplanned pregnancy

[Confusedmom40]

I'm 40. I have 2 DC. A teen and a toddler. Im a single mum whose being made redundant in January. I've found myself 5 weeks pregnant and I don't know what to do.
I suffered with HG my entire 2 pregnancies and had post natal depression with my 2nd. I've already started being sick 😫 and don't think I can do this again. I spent 9 months in bed with my 2nd.
I've no one to talk too, I can feel my depression kicking in. I love my children so much so feel bad for even thinking of ending this.

Follow your heart, where is the dad in this?
personally being so ill before , I wouldn’t want go go through with it
lots of other questions too

Hes an amazing dad to our 2 children. We just don't get on as a couple. We stupidly slept together. I was on the pill but obviously didn't work. He knows I'm pregnant and thinks we are getting back together now so I need to have that conversation too. I've made such a mess of things.

Please don't worry I had an unplanned pregnancy and terminated at 8 weeks in June due to bad hg. I thought I was on my deathbed didn't want to go in and out of hospital, was sick and tired of taking medication, couldn't eat and neglected my kids. I had a 5 year old and just turned 1 year old. It was horrific and on a desperate day I terminated. I felt a lot of guilt but as time went by I knew it was right for me. 5 months later I'm pregnant again, although my 1 year old is slightly older being pregnant is tough. I'm trying to control the nausea and sickness but I haven't hit my peak yet. Think the termination made me want to fight the hg and replace my lost baby. It's hard. Do what's best for you.

Some pregnancies give worse hg than other pregnancies so please don't feel guilty. I was told my termination would be classed as tfmr (termination for medical reason). Do what's right for you.

It wasn't too bad first pregnancy but the 2nd was the worse experience of my life. Plus I'm 40 now and about to be made redundant 😫

You're not a bad person if you feel like ending it. Did you want more children?

No I don't want anymore. I adore the 2 I have.