What shall I do? Abortion or probably lose it?

[Squirtle1993]

I’ve found out that I’m pregnant again after a late miscarriage.

I’ve been bleeding, so naturally I thought it was all over and hopefully I won’t have to make the choice. There wasn’t much to see on the scan, but currently pregnant. Just under 5 weeks.

I’m not with the man, but we do have a good friendship. He’s not really a family man, twice divorced, no kids and nearly 15 years older than me. He comes over to see me from a country I used to live in. He seemed quite happy about being child free.

We spoke about it today and he said that he doesn’t want me to make a decision I’m not happy about and suggested that if I want to keep it, he won’t push me into abortion.

I’m swaying back and forward. There are more negatives than positives, but I’ve already had 2 abortions in the past. I don’t know whether I could live with making that decision again. Nor am I sure that I’m mentally able to cope with another pregnancy failure.

I don’t know what to do and really need to vent somewhere.

Hi Squirtle! You have a huge decision to make, I'm sorry your pregnancy doesn't come under easier circumstances. But it sounds like you have everything you need to make your decision. You've already aborted, so you know what that entails and how it affects you mentally and emotionally. You've had a lot of time to think about whether you would like to be a parent. Your partner, while not enthusiastically supportive, is not unsupportive either. You might end up as a single mum, but hopefully he would support financially and however else he can. Many people who abort say, "I want children, but not now." This is the time for you to decide if this is your "now." From the tone of your post, I feel like a big part of you wants this baby. I hope you will be able to make a choice that brings the most peace and happiness to your life. All my best to you.