Pregnant after termination

[Loopylou777]

Please no judgement. I had a surgical termination 40 days ago, i was 5 weeks and 2 days. A choice I made for various reasons. I deeply regretted this choice immediately after taking the first tablet and have suffered terrible guilt since. I have had trouble sleeping and have panic attacks. It was traumatic and I'm sure I have been left with some sort of PTSD after it. So today I took a pregnancy test, and it's positive. I had a negative test a week ago which was negative, the termination was done under ultrasound guidance so unlikely (but jot impossible) for any product to be retained. We have been so careful however I think I'm pregnant again 40 days after. I feel I've been given another chance but also feel incredible waves of guilt that I went through with a termination to end up in the same position again. I don't know why I'm posting on here, I think its because I have no one to talk to and don't want to talk to anyone incase they judge me for what I've done.

are you sure it’s a new pregnancy? Did you have a medical or surgical termination? You mentioned having it guided by ultrasound so I’m guessing it was surgical.

was the test last week one of the special low sensitivity ones they give you? It may be leftover hormones from the last pregnancy showing a positive result on your own test.

if it does turn out to be a new pregnancy please don’t feel guilty for being pregnant again, these things happen.

Yeah it was a guided surgical termination. I did the test 3 weeks after like they said and it was stark white negative. Today is a faint, but definitely there, line. I feel so guilty. I'm scared to have another termination but not sure I want to have another child either. It's such a hard situation.

It might be hormones leftover from the previous pregnancy. I had a medical termination and had to take the special low sensitivity test 3 weeks after, it was stark white. I also did a cheapie out of interest and there was a definite but faint line on that. It was just residual HCG leftover.

Can you call your provider and ask them?

I will, your probably right. I did have that thought in my mind about left over hormones. It does take time for them to leave the body doesn't it. I'll call my provider Monday and see what they say. Thanks for your support though, I really do appreciate it x

I did another test this morning and the line has defined become more dark and prominent. I.think this is a new pregnancy. I feel so stupid and guilty, ive gone through the trauma of a termination to end up pregnant again.

Ah OP it sounds like it possibly is a new pregnancy then 💐

please don’t beat yourself up, you are not the only one who this has happened to. There’s a thread on this board somewhere by someone who this happened to also, and she went on to have a second termination. Someone commented saying that the clinic will be used to this as it happens more often than people realise. I’ll see if I can find the thread for you and link it.

hopefully the provider will be able to get you in for a scan or something pretty quick to confirm it’s definitely a new pregnancy - have you any idea what you will do if you are pregnant?

Hello Loopy, I was reading your message and saw that you had feelings of deep regret after taking the pills for your previous abortion. I just wanted to say that even though you chose to abort that pregnancy, if you feel like given a second chance you would do things differently, you can choose to go ahead with this new pregnancy (if it indeed is one). Even if your partner or your family are not in agreement, the final decision is yours to make. Don't the the guilty feelings tell you that you don't deserve a chance to be a mom. New paths are there in front of you and you have the right to make whichever one is calling to you. I hope you'll be able to think this through with a clear head and heart, and choose the way that will bring the most peace to your life. Take care of yourself!

@Loopylou777 how are you getting on?

I am definitely pregnant again, symptoms kicking in with full force now. I've had to call in sick for work, not good. I'm so undecided. I've got the ball rolling with bpas just incase, I don't want to leave it too long. I'll be very early on tho. Maybe 4 weeks if that. Big conversations to be had, not sure I can go through the emotions of a termination again.

@Loopylou77 I know this is a very old post. Apologies. X can I ask what you did in the end? As I am in the same situation xx