About to take second tablets and petrified, handhold please

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Im currently 5+1 weeks pregnant and sat here awake waiting for the alarm to go off at 2:15am for me to take the 4 tablets of misoprostol. (The doctor told me to wait 36 hours due to being under 6 weeks hence the crazy alarm time).

I haven't been able to sleep a wink worrying about taking the tablets and how awful it's going to be. I've found myself buried deep in the terrible stories from MN ladies who have had medical terminations about passing out from the pain/bleeding etc. I suffer from health anxiety and whilst I have no hesitations on whether this is the right decision right now for us (I have a 2 year old DD and I'm still suffering emotionally following her traumatic birth so not ready for another) I'm still petrified.

Please could anyone who happens to be awake give me a virtual handhold/offer me any stories of positivity to get me through?

I've taken my cocodamol an hour ago so it's in my system and have also been told to take diclofenic once i insert the tablets. Have a hot water bottle next to me ready to go too.

Thank you xx

No advice, but certainly a massive handhold, I hope everything goes as well as it can

@Whatwouldyoudo2021 Thank you so much x

How are you doing OP? Sending hugs and my hand to hold

Sending a massive hug and handhold.

Another handhold op 💐

@Rashgremlin I've inserted the four tablets and now I guess it's just a waiting game for the cramps/bleeding to arrive. Feeling very shaky but it's just nerves ☹️

I'm an older mumsnetter here OP(52) and I'm a mum to grown up children. I can't sleep due to peri most nights, so I'm here if you need me lovely. You are doing the best thing for you wee family ❤️

@Thesethingsareudderrated that's so kind of you, thank you so much.

Holding your hand OP.

Time to stop looking at worrying threads and put on a favourite movie or audiobook. It’s all going to be ok.

Tell me about your wee girl and what she gets up to ,OP. Tell us what she's like and what she plays at. You are doing so well and you stop looking at those scary stories. You got Netflixs or a good boxset?

Hi Op, just coming on to say I went through this a few months ago and it was all fine physically.

I was worried too after reading threads about the process but it all went smoothly and as expected.

I was back to my usual life pretty much immediately - I gave myself the day off when I took the 4, then 2 pills, then back to usual life thereafter.

Hi OP hand hold from me too. The bold type on Netflix is very easy watching if you need a distraction. Or I always enjoy some Gilmore girls for an easy watch.

I'm sure you'll be fine I've dived down many an internet rabbit hole about medical stuff and it's never as bad as you think. Hug hug hug 🤗

Ladies thank you so much for your kind messages- I managed to sleep for about an hour and a half and I've now just put the final two tablets in as there is only a small bit of bleeding so far. No pain as yet but feel a little bit sick and 'heavy'.

@Punkypinky the Gilmore girls is a great shout I'm going to stick that on now! I reckon I've got an hour before my DD wakes up and then she will be jumping into our bed for a cuddle before DH takes her downstairs and I'll stay in bed.

@Thesethingsareudderrated you really are so lovely my little girl has just turned two and is an absolute live wire, she would talk the hind legs off a donkey and the tantrums are slowly turning me grey strand by strand but she is my absolute world.

You will be ok, I promise. I've been there and it wasn't as bad as I imagined it to be beforehand. Have you looked at any mindfulness exercises? A bit of meditation helped me a lot.

Sending you lots of love and support.

@sourraspberry can I ask how bad your bleeding was? So far I've had no real clotting or cramps, it's just blood when I wipe and a heavy feeling. I took the tablets 5 hours ago x

Hi OP, your wee one sounds so cute x I hope things are okay my lovely and you are managing to get some rest and maybe something light to eat and drink. If you have a chance later, let us know how you are if you can x