Hi,
Name change due to the nature of the situation.
I am 7 weeks pregnant and I'm booked in for a medical termination this week, this is my second termination and I feel absolutely terrible that I haven't learned from the first time. I was in the same abusive relationship (both times) which I have now recently left, I have come surprisingly far since I left my ex and I am progressing well.
I found out I was pregnant from the relationship a number of weeks ago and I don't feel there was an alternative option, I already have a DC from a previous relationship, who is a wonderful child, and I am looking forward to a new start. This does not eradicate the feelings of guilt that I have, I'm really worried that karma is going to come for me. Never in my wildest dreams did I imagine I would go through this once, never mind twice. While I don't forsee myself having a relationship for a very long time- I am going to have the coil inserted to ensure I am never here again.
This time around I am less anxious about the pain and what to expect, I did not find the first time particularly uncomfortable as I kept my pain meds topped up and I will do the same this time. Anyway, enough rambling, I'm just hoping for some support x