Hello mnetters,
You were a rock of support back in January when I had my termination at 5weeks+6d and I'm back again asking for support.
If your 'final' pregnancy ended in termination how did you move on?
I have 3 dc, I've had miscarriages. In the past the birth of a healthy baby helped heal my previous m/c and knowing we could try again and keep going so to speak. The termination wasn't made lightly, in any way shape or form and has flawed me.
I've propelled myself in changing our life and the life I was living at the time of termination- I was made redundant two days after finding out I was pregnant I and my dh have found better paying jobs, we are exchanging contracts on a house next week and are finally moving out of renting and into homeownership. It's a far, far better life and better prospects for our dc. But I'm reminded every day, every hour of what I've done. I think about how I'd be 34 or 5 weeks pregnant by now, I've avoided baby showers of friends who are due I'm September. I'm becoming more and more anxious and emotional the closer we get to the due date. I sold my youngest dc cot bed today and I cried after the lady collected it. She too was due in six weeks.
How do you accept that you terminated your last baby? Some days I wish I could turn back the clock and run away. Will I ever get over this?