Feel like an awful person

[AllTheTreesAreBrown]

I started a thread the other day in chat, but thought it may be better placed in here.

Found out I was pregnant over a week ago and stated the process of having a termination. I spoke to BPAS on Friday and received my kit yesterday, took the first set of pills then and have taken the next set a couple of hours ago.
I’m now bleeding, so it has obviously worked I feel relieved that’s it will be over soon, but feeling absolutely awful and guilty for my dc who basically haven’t seen me today.

I managed to drag myself out this morning for a few hours with them, but I just felt out of it.
Came home and done them a rubbish dinner and have been sat up in my room whilst they’re downstairs. I am totally alone, exdp who knew about the termination has been Mia since Friday, no doubt off with another woman just messaged me being nasty after I text him that I had started the procedure yesterday, not even asked if either me or the dc are ok and I just don’t know how I have managed to get myself in this situation, I honestly feel so used and like the worst mum in the world.

You're not a bad mum and you've made a decision which will help you be a better mum to your kids in the future.

Be kind to yourself x

You sound like a great mum! Not sure how old your DC are but I’m sure they can manage a day at home watching movies if you’re struggling tomorrow. Don’t cook anything, just order a take-away.
Take the pressure off yourself, you’re going through a tough time and sometimes mums are out of action because they aren’t well, because they are human like everyone else - the kids will understand that! As above, be kind to yourself 💐

Thank you, I really just feel so alone. Sat here crying my eyes out, my friend was meant to be with me but has had to take care of her dc who is sick.

Hope you are feeling ok.

your DC will be absolutely fine. Take as much time to yourself as you need. X