Just looking for reassurance and other peoples experiences

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Sorry for the following TMI. My head is all over the place and I'm so anxious.

I've had my appointment dates from BPAS for a scan (Friday) and a consultation (Monday). The consultation is a telephone appointment.

My periods are all over the place so I have no idea how far along I am, though I suspect about 8-10 weeks.

How long after the consultation will I have to wait for a procedure appointment?

I'm scared about booking time off work. I think I will definitely need a few days. I work in a public facing role, 12-15 hour shifts, on my feet the whole time. if I'm going to be bleeding a lot then I really don't think I will be able to cope.
My periods are super heavy (bleed through mooncup and nighttime pad in about 1.5-2 hours) and my manager tells me off for having to go to the loo that often.

I have 2 children already. I know a termination is the right choice. I had HORRIFIC depression with both pregnancies and post-partum psychosis with my 1st. I can not put myself or my family through that again.

I'm just anxious to go through with it all as soon as possible as I'm terrified I will get attached to the pregnancy. That would truly be a disaster. It took me 5 years to get truly well again after my 1st and then 2 years with my 2nd (who is 5 now). There is a 7 year gap between them for a reason. :(

I'm so glad you posted because it reminds me of things I went through my pregnancies and makes me think no I wasn't imagining it.

Depending on what you're having...if it's a medical at 8 weeks it wasn't that bad. I made sure to take pain relief before the second set of pills and was in bed at about 6 the pain relief helped a lot and I bled about 4-5 hours later after going to the toilet...I think I bled for a few days (heavy) and it felt like a period...my bleeding only started after the second set of pills...

But since you mentioned a procedure I assume u might be having a surgical? I was allowed to collect my medical pills earlier as I was suffering from really bad vomiting which made me bedridden and very weak...