Pregnant , anxious , confused , early miscarriage

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Hey all , bit of background . 33 highly anxious in general , current in the midst of a highly anxious phase anyway . Then two weeks ago I found out I was pregnant . I was 2 weeks late , but this has happened before in times of stress / anxiety . Shocked , overwhelmed and terrified . Partner of 14 years , great family support network . But I still stuggle badly with health anxiety . Well this has made it even worse . First pregnancy so it’s new . Had a lot of cramping throughout , the last few days more intense . I’m getting some debris upon wiping . Sometimes bloody discharge , yesterday this : see attached pic ? Does it look like an early sack . It’s odd as no one I have been around had these pains so often so is this a sign of things to come ? I just want to know what to expect . I’m not sure what to do about the pregnancy as the clock is ticking . But the fear is terrifying around still birth ; dying in childbirth , later miscarriage resulting in hemmorage . I’m not a bad person , but I feel as though my life is in danger with this situation . Hope someone can shed some light and help . Thank you xxx

That looks like normal pregnancy discharge but if you're concerned I'd speak to a doctor or midwife.

In regards to your other concerns about childbirth and stillbirth etc I was the same with my first pregnancy. Believe in yourself and stay positive. Don't scare yourself otherwise you'll avoid everything and have anxiety.

Thank you for your reply . Honestly , I’m in sheer terror . Worried that this poor 7 week foetus is already doing harmful things to my body . Shocking I know . I’ve done nothing but cry hysterically for 3 weeks , had to take one off work which was a new job . I’m also making errors in this new job . It’s not a great start . I’m not sleeping well atall , I’ve already made midwives aware of my mental health Upon booking . Heard nothing and I’m just in turmoil . I’m too ashamed to tell anyone about my feelings . My mum knows and my partner but I’m so scared of telling anyone else as I’m so terrified and depressed . I feel really detached from reality and alone . I feel pretty vulnerable tbh . I was already in a panic crisis anyway and the pregnancy was the icing on the cake . I’m scared of anything medical these days , I see everything as a threat and all I can think of is this pregnancy is a danger to my life . Sorry for the dark ramble , but as I said I can’t make this clear else where and without confidants .

I'm so sorry you're feeling rubbish. I think we've forgotten how much women need to rest when they're pregnancy because it's taking a lot of energy. I couldn't work through any of my pregnancies but if that's not an option please rest and get as much sleep as you can. Forget thinking about the baby...they're growing...look after yourself and baby will be fine. The extra sleep helps a lot in the early stages. I didn't have anyone to help me though crazy panic when I was pregnant a few weeks ago and now I realise how silly I was and I just wish I had somewhere there to tell me it would be okay.

Could it depression? Please speak to your doctor how you're feeling and see if they can give you medicine (they'll give you something that is safe in pregnancy). Stay strong and don't give up. Pregnancy clouds everything...it's not the baby's fault it's the fact that your body is working hard to grow that baby...x

I’ve just started a new job this week and I hate it . I burst into tears in the evening and have no downtime . It’s broken sleep all night with worry then start again all worked up for the day , it’s horrible . I’ve gone from having a secure job , leaving for a new start after 14 years . Finding out I was pregnant 2 days prior to starting and being unwell mentally . I feel like everything is against me right now . Thank you for your support

Hi op. Are you taking any medication for anxiety? You really don't have to feel like this, it's very treatable.

I know you said you're wary of anything medical but honestly, once you have control over the anxiety you will be able to think a lot more logically

I was , but my GP told me to stop . I’m going to EPU tomorrow the lady was very understanding . She said they will have a chat to me and see if they can reassure me . I’m even having panic attacks over that . I will go to pot as soon as I park up and all we are going to be doing is having a nice chat . Scan if I want one , which she said is entirely my choice , you would think I’m going for a transplant ! I’m pathetic , but I hate all things medical and get scared ill faint through being so worked up . I don’t get it

As pp have already said, please find some support for your anxiety. If a baby is what you want, you deserve to enjoy it a lot more than this. Being pregnant can be wonderful, but there are still a lot of times you might feel worried or concerned about other symptoms or feelings later on and you will want to be able to rationalise some of these things to prevent a spiral as it’s so easy to continuously think the worst.
Really hope you manage to enjoy some of your pregnancy.

Trigger Warning - photos ⚠️

I have endometriosis for background, I came off my period around 2 weeks ago, I bled for 3 weeks. I’m on the marina coil - having sex with my partner, not using a condom. I just passed this today but havent been bleeding and am concerned it could be a miscarriage - does anyone know what it could be? X