About four weeks ago I found out that I am pregnant again.
I already have 2 daughters 2 & 5 months and a Step daughter who lives with us at the weekends, 9.
we currently live in a two bedroom flat, our current living arrangements are baby in the cot, toddler in a single bed and when my step daughter is here she sleeps on the trundle in the same room (she is happy with this and enjoys being with her sisters)
we can’t afford to move, but we can afford other aspects of having another baby, eg, formula, nappies etc.
both my partner and I are so torn as to what we should decide.
if it wasn’t for the fact that we don’t have much space in our flat we would keep the baby.
but, we would have 3/4 children in one room.
this brings me so much stress, will the kids enjoy sharing a room, the need for their own privacy, will the kid’s get picked on when slightly older at school?
is it mean that they will share a room?
when we first bought our flat, we purchased as an investment and planned to move fairly soon after but then COVID came, we had a baby, then another, trying to re mortgage while on MAT seems impossible.
how did you all make your decisions if you was going to go ahead or not?
I keep going around in circles, one minuet I think with my heart, the next my head, I’m terrified of making the wrong choice.
Currently my main focus is living arrangements, finically, new car, how this impacts life in future, family of 5’s are harder to holiday/travel etc then 4, days out etc.
also, my youngest will be exactly one if we go ahead.
my other children will be 10,3 and 1 with potentially a new born.
how do I make this choice with a clear head?
when I first saw the test my gut feeling was that we couldn’t go ahead, but now that I am 8 weeks and I’ve been having a lot of symptoms, I’m starting to doubt myself.
my abortion pills came in the post yesterday and everytime I see the box I just feel dreadful, I think mostly its because I have to make the choice and I have to essentially end the pregnancy, I am so torn.
Any advice welcome,
Thank you.