I feel so so bad writing this. I feel like I may be punished for saying this but I am considering an abortion.
We have tried for this baby for 3 year. In the last 2 months so many problems have accumulated that made life a bit difficult.
I lost my dad , we have some issues in family plus my eldest is struggling and possibly has autism.
In the month when I became pregant I decided we will not try for a baby as it will be too much for as ATM. My husband and I were close only twice due to stress and this was on the day 7 and 24 of the cycle so I was sure I will not get pregnant especially after 3 years of trying .
I also had x rays done in the week after conception.
To my surprise the pregnancy test was positive. I couldn't belive it . 3 years of trying and nothing happened and when we decided we don't want to get pregnant it happened.
I am now 7w4d and instead of being happy I am so so anxious and devastated .
I worry that the x rays had a bad effect on the fetus . I worry that baby will be poorly and I will blame myself for having xrays . I worry that I will not be able to support my eldest if baby comes .
I worry about absolutely everything .
I think it's not a right time for us to bring a child into this world now but equally I feel that only thinking abortion I am committing a sin. That I will be punished for this.
Life is precious and I know so many people who would love to have a child so I feel really bad for being blessed and not appreciating it .
I am so so confused and don't know what to do .
I have an appoiiment booked with midwife on Wednesday but thanking of postponing it in case I decide for abortion.
To the people that been through this tell me did abortion affect your mental health ?Do you regret it ?
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FeelIcantdothis · 18/05/2022 10:06
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