I don't want to tell the father.

[Mummoffonee]

Hi, I haven't tested to see if I am pregnant, to be honest I am too scared to. I had a date about a month ago and we slept together. I went to the pharmacy the next morning to get the MAP. My period still hasn't arrived and I am always regular. I already have a daughter who is nearly 6.

I split up with my long term partner about 4 months ago. I fell pregnant with him at the end of 2020 but I had a termination at the beginning of last year. It was a really difficult decision but my ex partner was abusive and I really couldn't bring myself to have a baby with him. I still think about the termination a lot and I don't think I could bring myself to do it again. It was awful. I don't regret it as I have been able to get away from him for good with no ties.

Anyway, I guess the point of my post is that if I were pregnant right now, I would have the baby but I really don't want to tell the father. I'm not sure how he would react. My daughter's father already drops in whenever he feels like it and my daughter has got to the age where she is being affected by it.

Also my brother's girlfriend had to go through the courts and her daughter has to spend 50% of her time at her dads. The man that I went on a date with doesn't live close to me and I would really hate it if I had to be without my baby for half of the time and not know what is going on.

I know I haven't even taken a test yet but you know when you just know don't you? I'm just writing what I'm feeling/thinking about. I am very confused. Thank you for reading.

[candlemaker22]

I know the fear of taking a test and not wanting to know but a lot of your worries are based on the outcome of the test.

Bite the bullet, do a test and then if it is positive worry about telling the father. If it is negative then your worries are sorted.