Grieving on mother's day

[Fuzzyhippo]

I had a late term termination at 17 weeks a few years ago of a very much wanted baby boy, because I was going to get kicked out and lose everything if I didn't. I wasn't mature enough to make my own decisions and I regret it more every day for not standing up for myself. Every mothers day I feel as if I won't make it to the end of the day and every year seems to get harder and harder. My friend from school had her first baby born yesterday and every time I go onto social media I break down because I can't cope with it. I'm in physical pain from how much I've been crying today as well as my relationship of 7 years had just ended today. I know nothing will bring him back but I wish I could be up there with him. There's no word to describe the pain I'm feeling.

Has anyone else found it difficult today?

I’m so sorry for what you’re been through, that’s so hard to deal with.

Are you living somewhere different now?

I find Mother’s Day awful too, I lost my own mum six years ago and after two rounds of ivf had a miscarriage after the second one so having to accept I’ll never be a mother myself.

All in all I try and avoid Mother’s Day as much as humanly possible, it just causes me pain on lots of levels.

Sending you love OP, I know my situation isn’t the same but I can empathise with what a weight Mother’s Day can feel x

sorry this has been so hard for you. You sound to be in such pain.

Hope you can find some comfort and sleep.

If you can't- and writing here isn't enough- don't forget that you can call the Samaritans. They are there through the night and will listen; they can cope with tears. It can be a relief to talk to someone.

@Fuzzyhippo how are you feeling today?

Hiya
Sorry I didn’t see your post on Mother’s Day I was just looking through now for support. Yes I was dreading Mother’s Day to as I had 2 terminations that I can’t cope with at all. I have other children but they forgot all about Mother’s Day so I was glad really. I really do feel like the worst mum in the world for what I’ve done . I feel totally heartbroken 5 years later . anyway just wanted you to know your not alone feeling like this and I hope in time it gets bette for you x