Anyone else feel 50/50?

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Hello I am hoping for other people's perspectives on my situation.

I am currently 6 weeks pregnant, DD1 is 13 years and DD2 is 8 months.

When i first found out i was overjoyed, however now i am starting to doubt myself.

The main worry i have is the small age gap, there will be just 16 months between them. I wonder how i will cope. Even though DH is great and MIL, he works and she is getting her hipa replaced shortly.

I am still fat, bmi is 39.9, i had gestational diabetes in my last pregnancy. I also had a ELCS, was hoping for a VBACS but unsure if that will be possible so soon after a section.

DD2 sleeps well but is yet to go in her own room, i wonder how ill cope when they both need me during the night.

I also suffer from depression though i am managing well (most days!)

I am 32 and definitely want a 3rd child so would want to try when DD2 is around 1-2.

Part of me feels it would be silly to end the pregnancy just to fall again in 6 months time.

DH is supportive either way, which is great but I was hoping he'd sway a bit more either way so i could make a decision easier.

I literally feel torn.

Any experiences/advice appreciated.

Personally, if you were planning on trying in 6 months anyway I wouldn’t terminate your current pregnancy, the things you’ve listed as problems won’t have drastically changed in that time presumably (husband will still work long hours, MIL will still be recovering, your weight won’t have drastically changed, baby/toddler sleep will be hit and miss for a long while yet).

And you arnt guarenteed to fall pregnant when you want so you could end up with an undesirable age gap anyway. And particularly as you arnt sure, you could end up with regret.

There isn’t a wrong decision, if you don’t want to have this baby then that’s absolutely fine too, it’s totally your right and I hope my post doesn’t come across as judgemental as I really don’t mean it to, just giving my opinion based on your OP. Good luck whatever you decide