I’m half way through a medical TOP , I’m feeling all sorts of emotions but mainly regret. I don’t want to take the second lot of tablets but after hours of scouting the internet it looks like without progesterone shots it’s pretty much over anyway within a few days . It’s breaking my heart 🥺
Nobody really knows about this pregnancy apart from my partner , who has tried to be as supportive as he can - but truly when it comes down to it when I want to talk about it, he shuts it down very quickly. Which is bizarre to me as it makes me feel like he doesn’t care , yet I’m the one here feeling all this grief, sadness & emotion. He could be protecting himself I don’t know as I knew he wanted this baby, it was me who was trying think ‘logical’ and to do things correctly ( ie move in together, introduce him to my teenage daughter etc) I panicked the thought of so many changes in such a short time frame scared me into making my decision. I just want some reassurance that I’m doing the right thing & im not a bad person I guess as I feel like a monster right now 😔
I feel very alone right now and needed to rant to someone . Thank you x