Words fail me.
3 days late, took a test or which is positive.
I already had two DC (9&5) and I'd be due end of July.
I'm a fully booked wedding videographer. Next year I have 36 weddings with my busy season being when I'm due. I'd have to hand money back to most of my clients and to be frank I don't have it.
This is my main concern. My business has just began to take off and this would throw a huge spanner in the works.
I don't feel like me and my partner cope all the well with the two children we have. We are stretched as it is I guess, both work a lot and feel like we just don't have the extra time to give another child. We would cope, but I'm not sure it's the best idea.
Anyone been faced with this? I feel pretty bleugh about it. Like yes we could technically do this but I'm not sure we want to?
Of course we'd love the baby and give it a happy home but I'm just about 4 weeks gone and a huge part of me thinks this is potential for life but I'm not sure I want to do this all again.
What do you do when you just don't know what to do?
Anyone been here, how do you even start to decide? Logically we are fine as we are and this would be a huge hurdle but then we could absolutely financially do this and be okay- my mental health with lack of sleep and juggling 3 kids whilst my husband works the hours he does is a big concern though.
Big love to anyone going through this right now. It absolutely sucks :(