Hello
I decided I would write my experience of my recent medical abortion after reading nothing but horrible and terrible reviews online.
I’m not going to go into reasons for my decision, it was a hard and deeply personal choice to make and mine and mine alone.
I was just over 6 weeks when I completed the termination, and I was absolutely terrified after reading all the reviews online and basically worked myself into a complete state.
I suffer with PTSD and anxiety anyway so this just made it 10 times worse.
I initially contacted my Local NHS clinic on a Friday and was told I’d have to wait until the next Wednesday for a phone consultation with the DR.
Due to the coronavirus pandemic everything has become delayed. The first weekend was awful as I was just sitting and overthinking things 
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On the Wednesday I spoke to a really nice female DR who ran through everything with me and advised that the first appointment they had at the clinic was the following Monday, so I took this, slightly conscious that time was moving on and I was getting further along.
Again I had another weekend of sitting and overthinking things, and I was feeling quite unwell from the pregnancy itself, I have honestly never felt so ill 
Monday arrived and I went to the clinic and had a really lovely nurse, she completed a scan to confirm I was quite early along, and I also had the implant fitted as I decided I didn’t want to find myself in this position again.
We then discussed my options, as I was nervous I wanted to attend hospital to carry out the procedure so I was near medical help if I needed it….. however due to the pandemic the nurse advised me that they could only get me into the hospital to complete the procedure the following week, obviously this would put me a lot further along in the pregnancy, and also there was a risk of becoming exposed to Coronavirus also.
Although I was petrified at this point, I decided I would complete the termination at home starting on the Thursday and completed on the Saturday.
The nurse took time to reassure me, provided me with all the medication needed to do this at home and then allowed me on my way.
Thursday - At 11am I took the first tablet, I had some cramping and general discomfort (tbh I’d been experiencing this throughout the pregnancy anyway) I wasn’t sick as some women are and felt fine.
Saturday - At 8 am I got up, had a light breakfast as the nurse advised, took some paracetamol and ibuprofen which she had also advised (I was given Dihydrocodine but didn’t think I’d need it straight away) and then at 9am inserted 4 tablets vaginally as advised.
Inserting them this way gives you less side effects and you avoid the horrible sore throat you get when taking them orally.
I then laid down for 30 mins as the nurse had advised to. I put a pad on and was wearing comfy clothes and also got a hot water bottle (it helped a lot!)
My partner was with me also, as you have to have someone with you to make sure you are ok and if you need medical help they can get it for you.
As soon as a laid down within 10 minutes I had very very hard cramping, they were quite intense and I’m not going to lie, the painkillers were not even making a dent, but they came in waves so I got respite in between. I also felt the weirdest popping sensation for inside, but it didn’t hurt just felt really funny.
After 30 mins I got up to use the toilet and I was bleeding immediately and quite heavy also.
For the next few hours I just confined myself to the bathroom, I had plenty to drink, Netflix to watch on my tablet and I also lit my favourite candle to try and take my mind off what was happening.
I’m not going to lie to you all, for me it was very very painful, probably the worst cramps I have experienced and there was a lot of blood… I passed two big clots (I assume one must have been the pregnancy as I just flushed and didn’t look) in the first two hours.
I never flooded a pad, as I just stayed sat on the toilet and let things happen. I wasn’t sick but I had an upset stomach.
My partner kept checking in on me to make sure I was ok all the way through, tbh it was reassuring just to have that support there.
When I was able to take the stronger pain relief I did, and it helped a little….. I really regretted not taking them earlier as the pain was quite intense.
When I was able to walk about I did and it also helped.
I also had to take a further two tablets at 1pm but as I was bleeding quite heavily I had to take these orally, they honestly give you such a dry sore throat!! You need to let them dissolve under your tongue for 30 mins then you can swallow the rest. Again I wasn’t sick, but I did feel hot and cold and light headed.
The nurse did warn me I’d feel awful for a few hours, and she want lying…. But it’s manageable and just make sure you stay hydrated
I started the process at 9am and by 6pm I was over the worst of it.
I had trouble sleeping that evening due to the fact I couldn’t get comfy, though I never soaked my clothes or my pad.
Today, I’m still bleeding but it’s like a heavy period, and I have some cramping but it’s alot less severe.
The important thing is I got through it, yes it was painful and not a pleasant experience, but I’m feeling better today, a little sad yes but I know it was for the best.
My advice to anyone going through this is make sure you have adequate painkillers, plenty of fluids and hot water bottle! If you’re nervous and anxious like me have things to help distract you like a film, or something you enjoy. Drink plenty of fluids! And if you can make sure you eat too.
I’m really glad I got through it, the pain is only temporary and us girls are made of strong stuff, we can do it.
I wanted to be honest and not sugar coat things, I appreciate everyone is different, but I made it through and so can you, please don’t be scared it will be ok xx