Hi I'm new to mumsnet, I've been looking at threads for years but never joined in or signed up but now I took the leap. So I'm a mum of 2 DS who is 1 and DD who is 2 (can tell I live on mumsnet already ha) and recently found out I was pregnant again, me and DP spoke about it and it just wasn't the right time I had just gone back to work the week prior to finding out and we just moved into our dream house 3 months prior. So anyway we decided to go with abortion and I was 6 weeks and 6 days. The day came and I took the medical pills everything seemed to be going to plan and I was trying not to think etc. I placed the second set of pills (the 4) vaginal and they actually fell out a couple of hours later. Called BPAS said it was normal. So took the last 2 pills and then when I went to the toilet I felt something coming out, me I thought it was the pills and when I looked in my hand it was the 'baby' the thing is, it had little hands and fingers and a head and legs and now I just cannot cope. I cried and cried and even though I feel relief I'm not pregnant anything I just don't know what to do with myself. Sorry for the long post especially with it being my first but just wondering if anyone had any advice or similar experiences thank you