I’m new to this forum but after reading your experiences; I thought this would be the perfect place to share with you my fears and feelings in hopes to get some support. I’m really sorry if this post upsets anyone but I just need to get this off my chest.
I found out I was pregnant after my period was two days late (I’m very regular), and my partner and I have decided to go ahead with medical termination. I didn’t need to have a scan as I’ve had a successful telephone consultation with MSI, and they sent my pills over in the post. After waiting for 3 days following the initial consultation, I’ve taken them, bled, passed clots and thought that was that. Three weeks later I took a pregnancy test provided by the clinic which displayed a faint positive. I thought not much of it as my symptoms decreased a little and I wasn’t feeling as pregnant - I decided to wait another week before another test. Week later, another positive...
I got an appointment to go into the clinic and it was confirmed to me that the medical treatment failed and I was pregnant with twins!!! They are alive and I’m now showing a little bit. I’m scheduled for a surgical treatment on Monday morning but I am absolutely terrified. I’ve had a general anaesthetic before but over the years I’ve developed nasty health anxiety and I’m absolutely petrified that I will not wake up, something will go wrong and it’s getting to the point where I’m thinking of writing goodbye letters to everyone. The Dr told me that it will take around 10 mins so the procedure isn’t long, but it’s the 10 mins that I’m under I’m afraid of.
I know it’s ridiculous - I guess I just need someone to tell me to get a grip!
My boyfriend is extremely supportive by the way, but he sometimes gets insanely sick of my irrational anxiety. Oops!