Unexpected pregnancy

[Unsureno4]

I have 3 children, youngest is nearly 2 and finally weaned and sleeping. I’ve been suffering from depression but wouldn’t take any medication while feeding. I thought I could get myself out of it, would be better when baby was sleeping, not feeding etc but I see now that it’s not.
Got my vaccine last week and my period was late so I put it down to that. Still nothing so did a test this morning and it’s positive.

I don’t want to continue this pregnancy. I can’t give another nearly 3 years of myself, I’ve nothing left to give and it’s not fair on my other children.
Hubby will support what I want but he would like to continue it. He has offered to give up work and let me go full time but I just think it’s missing the point. I have horrendous labours, the last one being the worst, I just can’t put myself through it again.
Before this we had decided we were done, I am sad that I won’t carry another, feed another etc but I was making my peace with that.
I don’t want to disappoint him either, maybe in the long term it would all work out but I don’t think I can take the risk of that.

I don’t know what sort of advice I’m looking for but just helps to put it down

So sorry that you haven't received any responses yet @Unsureno4.

How are you feeling now? Have you come to more of a decision?

Hello, I’m in a similar situation to you tho my three children are now teenagers. Im 6 and a half weeks and have decided after a week of indecision that I’m not having this baby. I’m older at 41 and had a minor heart abnormality when had my last son. Im scared to death of takings meds and / or surgical but I know it’s the right thing for me to do. I never imagined I’d not want a pregnancy before as being a mum was all I ever wanted but, like you, we’re done. Here if you need a handhold. Im
Ringing Marie stopes in the morning x

Thinking about you all. I know how terrible these feelings are.xx