Hi, this is my first time posting, I suppose I’m just asking for advice and experiences that may help with my decision. I am nearly 10 weeks pregnant (unplanned) and I’m not sure if I can carry on with the pregnancy. I’ve just come out of a 3 year relationship, I have 3 children already, 2 from a previous that are 8 and 13 and one from my recent relationship who’s nearly 1. I really struggled through my last pregnancy, gained a lot of weight and had a bad flare of my Crohn’s disease after my son was born, (I’m now in remission after successful treatment). The birth was also horrific. A heart defect was also discovered at the end of my last pregnancy, although I have since been told it is normal for my body I could barely breathe at the end of pregnancy and had to have blood thinners in case of blood clots, which I have already started taking again. I was originally going to go ahead with the pregnancy although I’m terrified of how I’ll cope and the toll it will take on my body. Since splitting with my partner I am even more terrified of how I would possibly cope. Also the costs of childcare for 2 little ones just seems impossible! But the more I think of aborting I keep thinking of how il be killing my baby and my other children’s sibling. My ex would be supportive and he is a good man but just has his own problems with mental Heath and drinking quite a lot which has taken its toll over the last year and a half. But then I think that it would be for the best as I can move on easier and get myself fit and healthy again and also work more than just the one day a week I am now. Sorry for the long winded post! Thanks x