Hi all,
I had a medical abortion 10 days ago, at 8 weeks pregnant.
I have a 3 year old and a 1 year old, and my husband and I made the decision together, as it wasn't the right time emotionally, financially and a number of other reasons.
I was completely fine with my decision, even after taking the first tablet, until I accidentally saw the fetus on the bathroom floor. Since that moment I have not stopped thinking about it.
Up until that point, I was quite disconnected to the pregnancy and had no hesitation in my decision. Since seeing the fetus, it has affected me greatly, and while I try to get on with life because 2 kids under 4 is crazy, most nights I cry myself to sleep. I can't stop thinking about it and how I just decided that this baby wasn't to be.. I feel grief and despair, especially when doing everyday normal things with my other 2 (such as cuddling them to sleep, helping them paint, watching them play) while knowing I will never do that with this one.
Has anyone been in a similar position, and does it get easier? X