Hi everyone . Need some perspective and can't share openly yet. I'm 46. Got 2 kids. Been a single parent most of their lives. My dd is 18. My ds is 9. Relative financially stable. Own my own home. Relatively happy. had struggled over the years. Some not so nice bfs (emotionally). Ds has adhd and asd so not bern easy with him (has anxiety abt sleep etc) but hes easier now. Ive met a lovely bloke. He's younger than me but so kind and lovely. Never critical or mean and supportive we laugh a lot. He moved in. he has a 3 year old we are 2 afternoons a week. We've had a few issues with lifestyle... he has no wyslufucatiobs. Works in the local shop so very little money and still likes to drink and smoke etc.
Things with my dd been really hard for 4 years. Thought there could be cce. Has ss assessment going out a lot and smoking weed all the time. Scraped gcses despite not attending few as she is bright. Then in a very violent relationship . She is now 13 weeks pregnant. Apart from him but we have child protection involved due to the dv. Also my sister has just had failed ivf. No kids yet at 44. She diesnt know about my dd yet and finally. I'm pretty sure I'm pregnant. ... such a bloody idiot. I'm not anti termination but this is very obvs my last chance an only chance of having a baby with my bf. But so much on my plate already. Am really the family breadwinner . Dd and Dr need me and I'm old lol. Plus was enjoying the odd weekend away. Any thoughts? Ugh reading that back the choice seems pretty bloody obvious ..