Had a termination in November and suffered mentally and physically since. The reason I had it was I was worried about a high risk pregnancy And the kids I already had but I suffer from severe health anxiety so I panicked. I’ve had that much irregular bleeding episodes and pelvic pain since thinking my wombs not gone back to how it was I don’t know...crying to my GP most days telling her how much I regret it and now I’m infertile and asking her for a hysterectomy. I’ve been through a bit of a breakdown and been off work. I came off the pill as I wanted to see what happened with the bleeding issues incase it was masking issues....also had sex for the first time since the termination a couple of weeks ago (obvs id thought I was infertile so didn’t consider pregnancy) and now I think I’m pregnant again, that or I still have tissue left from November?? The Gp is going to do a blood test tomorrow, I honestly feel like I could have made a messy situation even messier. I don’t even know how to feel about either, I just feel numb over it all, the thought of terminating again seems impossible after how it’s affected me but the dread and anxiety I have of another pregnancy seems impossible. I feel I will miscarry and I feel I deserve that too though....I feel utterly horrendous that I terminated a much wanted baby and now here I am again and just want that baby back so bad....any words of advice? I realise how much of an idiot I look but I’m down enough as it is about the whole sorry situation I’m in so I’m not really looking for judgemental comments even though I realise I deserve them.