First mothers day since abortion

[Coffee247]

Is anyone else finding today a little hard? Very grateful to be spending it with my 2 amazing kids but still finding it a bit emotional x

Sorry nobody replied. I've just seen your message.

I think the only way is to feel like a mother of three. Just one isn't here. It's all you can do. 😔

Go easy on yourself. You took the decision I'm sure for all the right reasons. But do allow yourself to grieve.

I felt the same. It’s been rolling over me quite a bit recently. I know, at the time it was the right decision, but I’m just left wondering ‘what if...?’

Two children here too but It just doesn’t all feel complete....

Hopefully time will heal

Hi ladies sorry I didn't get a notification of your replies. Thank you its comforting im not alone and whirlwind im sorry you felt the same. I hope youre OK. Yeah I do very much have thay empty not complete feeling still. Some days I dont even think about what I've been through and done and then suddenly I remember and I start picturing things. Horrible x

Hi Coffee

Yes, I too struggled a lot with the horror of what I'd allowed to be done.

I find it strangely aggressive on MN about that - there's the fiercest and most outraged attack reaction if anyone ever ever tries to talk about the actual reality of what is done. Especially if it's when someone else is deciding whether to go for it!

I don't get that. If I'd known, I would not have allowed them to go ahead. I found out afterwards and was devastated.

They kept saying 'it's only tiny, it's nothing, it's just a dot, it's not a life.' 😞

I'm sorry, Coffee. I don't know if one day we will be allowed to explore our feelings in a free way without judgement and attack.

Honestly, you must not blame yourself ever, because there's deliberate misinformation about this process. You are and were just trying to be the best mum and do the right thing, even though it was hard. 💐

I found it bizarre, I don't have children but mothers day fell 3 days before my medical abortion and it just felt a bit surreal. I always knew I was doing the right thing but I definitely felt odd.