Feeling so emotional

[Crazy86]

I had a surgical termination after a failed medical on 7th January. I was a bit teary at the time but talked everything through with my best friend and get like I was getting back on track.

Today one of the girls I used to work with posted a pregnancy announcement, her due date is the same as what mine would have been. As silly as this will sounds it’s hit me really hard. I’ve spent the day crying on and off and feeling really down. I know that I made the right decision for me, my ex partner didn’t want anything to do with me or the baby and I didn’t want to raise a child alone, but it still doesn’t stop the hurt.

How have you coped after?

I had one a couple of weeks ago, I don't know how I'd feel if someone close to me announced pregnancy atm, a weird feeling, I guess like looking in from the outside thinking that could of been me. I walked past a display of baby gifts in the supermarket today, thinking that won't be me now. I am not regretting it though its more of a weird could of been feeling.

What's helped me most is staying nc with my ex, it reinforces I definitely did the right thing and I now have the chance to live my life the way I want to.

So sorry that must be so hard :( take comfort in that you know it was the right decision for you but it of course will still affect you. I keep thinking forward to my due date in June imagining what could have been and I always feel sad and a bit emotional. I just really have to talk myself down that I don't regret the decision and did it for a reason. After the termination I just kept imagining all the good that could have been, but there were a lot of negatives which made me choose the decision. Its easy to forget that. Xx