Termination HELP!!

[Jaylou7rainbow]

Please help me. I am 6 weeks pregnant with my third baby but have booked a termination for Wednesday.
I suffer with bad mental health problems. Severe anxiety especially surrounding my children getting ill. Depression and OCD. I wished I had been more careful but thought it was what I wanted but now I don’t.
I can barely survive this lockdown have little support from anyone and a selfish partner.
I suffered sever PND with both previous ds abs was suicidal after the second. In my dreams I have a third and the whole experience is completely different to the two previous of motherhood but in reality this is not a given.
My head gets caught in fantasy land. I have found my children very hard work as I have made them so dependent on me for play that they are suffocating.
My relationship is awful too.
I just feel so terrible at termination but feel I will do more harm if I continue to myself and my existing children. I don’t want to regret my decision but know it’s the right one as I know my mind is very poor. Please help and be kind. Has anyone else been in a similar situation ?? X

Thank you all for listening and taking time to care at this awful time. @GreenSlide thank you for showing you care. Fortunately the dm was very supportive and not at all trying to sway me. Xx

Dowser
Just read your post. You sound like an amazing woman! I'm delighted it worked out for you in the end!

Jaylou7rainbow
I hope you're feeling as well as you can be. You have been in my thoughts today

Hi OP, just to say I terminated at 5 weeks last November due to HG among other factors including my mental well-being and the wellbeing of my other 4 children. Even at only 5 weeks I was already super unwell and both myself and my kids were still traumatised from the last HG pregnancy. Definitely think that all your reasons sound perfectly valid. I think you’ll make the right decision for you and your family.

Can 6week medical abortion be less painful
Like not painful at all just very mild cramp and bleeding including passing of large clot

@Pearlberry I had one at 6wks, although experiences can vary for me mild-moderate pain with painkillers, I didn't pass clots larger than 10p, bleed heavy for 5 days.

@Jaylou7rainbow how did you get on? X