2nd abortion regret

[Chant353]

This is my first post on here. I’ve been reading lots of threads on here trying to find someone that’s been in my exact situation, because I just feel so awful and need to share. I’ve had 2 abortions, one when my first child was 9 months old and my 2nd abortion just last week, and my 2nd is 19 months.
I felt complete regret and sadness after this one, and though I know it made the most sense- my husband doesn’t have a job, and we’re currently living in my parents basement- I feel so shook up because I really did want a third, just not right now. It’s really torn me up inside for having to have done this twice. I feel like I don’t deserve another one. Please be kind, wondering what to do next.

Be kind to yourself. It sounds like you made the best possible decision for your family. Are you able to get any counselling sessions from your abortion provider? Otherwise speak to your GP, you’re not alone in this and you should be offered help. You’ve had your termination and there’s no way back, so try and focus on you and your family. Take precautions to avoid another unplanned pregnancy. Hopefully it will get easier for you in time. Good luck!

Thank you @laura212,yes I’m sure I’d be able to access counselling. I had an IUD inserted after the procedure. Didn’t expect it to be so hard though. Now I’m longing for a third child, as I’m only 29, though I know the same issues would be there. Only time will tell if we end up having a third one down the road. Can’t help feeling I’ve missed my chance though.