Heads a mess waiting

[SunnyDays3]

Hi all, I’m in Northern Ireland so getting an abortion isn’t as easy as England. It’s only just been legalised here and people are fighting to get it made illegal again. Anyway I phoned a charity company who then referred me on to the health trust who are ringing me at the start of this week coming for a telephone consultation which he said will take 30mins then il have to go to the clinic to get the 1st tablet. Everything is going through my head, like what If they don’t let me have it, what if they don’t ring me 😓 I’m not eating or sleeping and I feel like I’m just spiralling into a deep black hole I can’t get out off. I really just want this all to be over with. I have an 8 year old child and I just feel I’m not giving him any attention at the minute because all I want to do is lie in bed all day and cry. And to top it off I’m also working at home so it’s going to be a hard week for me. As horrible as this sounds I just keep hoping I miscarry 😓😓 I need help quick

@SunnyDays3 how are you?
I didn’t want to read and run. I’ve just started the process for a medical abortion at home (in England) and I had the same worries as you, granted it’s not as complicated here.
Have you had the advice you need?

Hiya @winnie20 yes I got sorted I have my appointment tomorrow morning to get the first tablet in the clinic then I’ll take the next set at home on Saturday! I’m so nervous but I just want this nightmare to be over. How are u? X

It’s horrible isn’t it. I had the same thoughts as you. Couldn’t concentrate on anything, can’t sleep, feeling sick constantly. Nobody to talk to about it either which doesn’t help!
I took my first tablet at 12, I feel totally normal so far. I was a little bit queasy about an hour ago but that stopped when I ate something so I think I was just hungry more than anything else.
Good luck with your appointment! I’m taking the second set tomorrow. Xx

Yes it’s so horrible, I haven’t slept right in about 2 weeks constant crying, hardly any appetite, constant pain in my stomach and it’s prob all down to stress. I’m just hoping nothing goes wrong and it works for me, my luck I’d be one of the unfortunate ones and still be pregnant 2 weeks later ffs. Oh good luck for tomorrow hope u are ok, keep me posted how u get on. It’s comforting when people are going through it at the same time as you. It’s actually more common than u think! I have no one to talk to either only my partner n there’s only so much he can say :( he’s not a worrier like me so I always see the bad in everything! Good luck for tomorrow xx

@Winnie20 forgot to tag u in the above post x

Thank you
It definitely helps knowing there’s someone to talk to. I’ve told literally nobody.
I will update you tomorrow. Hope you’re ok and manage to get some rest. Be kind to yourself x

@Winnie20 I know that’s the worst part not being able to talk to anyone about it, it makes u feel so alone at times. Last week was the worst for me but when I had the telephone consultation on Monday I have been much better! Actually looking forward to tomorrow!! X

You’ll feel even better tomorrow. I feel so relieved already I really do! We can help each other through

@winnie20 yes we def will help each other through it! Will be thinking about u tomorrow x