Termination anxiety/sadness

[MissMadEyeMoody]

Recently found out I was pregnant, and have planned to terminate.

Now I know I'm doing the right thing, lack of space, uncertainty about job due to covid19, and my 2DC, but I just feel so incredibly guilty and upset.
I'm also nervous about the whole procedure, if it's going to be painful, how I'm going to feel once it's done, will I be judged by the doctors/nurses?
My head is just all over the place at the moment...

I've just found out I'm pregnant also. I don't know what to do. Ever since I've found out all I've felt is sadness and I've cried non stop. I have 1DC and me and my husband never really wanted anymore. If that ever changed it would of been planned, but this has been decided for me and I can't come to terms with it. I have suffered anxiety from a young age and struggle with change. I have an amazing bond with my child and I love my life as it is. The thought of another just sends me into a panic and upset. When I had my DC i had a wonderful pregnancy and I was so happy...the Labour was horrible and I struggled with PND afterwards but I overcame that after a few weeks.
I just can't help but think terminating the pregnancy is the best option. We ain't good financially and I'm not in this emotionally and I fear if I carry on it will send me into depression. I just feel so sad but when I think about terminating I get relief. I feel awful saying that, as I never thought I'd have an abortion but I can't see any other way out.

Your mixed feelings are completely normal.

For what it's worth, the healthcare staff that I interacted with before & during mine at the sexual health clinic, then at the hospital, were extremely compassionate and non- judgemental. I don't think they could do the work properly otherwise.

You won't be judged, really you won't. You are doing the right thing for you and your family and there's absolutely no shame in that.