Hello,
I have just found out I am pregnant and really don't know what to do.
I am 26 and my oh is 30. We have been together on and off for 10 years, and have just brought our first home together and moved in.
At the beginning of last year, I fell pregnant but it came at a really bad time, i suffer from depression and anxiety and at the time i found out i was pregnant i was going through a really low time, feeling suicidal at one point. So we made the decision to terminate the pregnancy. It has played on my mind ever since and i felt so bad for doing it but i know it was the right thing to do as neither of us were in any position to bring a baby into the world.
I am feeling better in recent months but have now found out im pregnant and im so worried. I don't think i can bring myself to have another termination but i really don't think that i can have a baby or that im capable of looking after one. I worry that i will sink into bad depression again and not be able to cope. My OH isn't a "baby person" and is useless when it comes to this sort of thing. (i have nephews he's not great with)
He said he will love and support me whatever decision i make, but I just don't want to bring a child into the world that we wont be able to cope with, i just really don't know what to do and i know he isn't ready for kids so i worry that he will leave me and i know i will never be able to cope alone.
Any advice will be greatly appreciated
TIA