I'm a few days late for my period. Took a test, immediate and clear positive. I don't want to be pregnant. I didn't want to have unprotected sex, I didn't want to have sex at all, I didn't even think I'd get pregnant easily as I have PCOS.
I don't want to tell anyone. I can't tell my boyfriend. I've just come home to see family for Christmas. The family planning clinic opens in two hours so I will go then and request a termination. They don't offer medical ones in my region and I have to be referred to a city two hours away for the surgical one. I just want this to be over. I feel so stupid that I let myself get into the situation where this happened. I wish this never happened.
I've always wanted to have children so badly and I never knew if I would be able to fall pregnant when I wanted to and it's something I've talked to my boyfriend about if we get married and want to have kids in the future, which we do. And now I'm pregnant, after having sex one time where I don't even remember it happening, didn't want it, and now I have to terminate this baby. What if I can't get pregnant in the future when I want to? And it will be karma for the choices I've made. I wish this wasn't happening