Chemical?

[frizzlemcdrizzle]

NC for obvious reasons.

I had two strong positives on Tuesday - I already had a feeling I was pregnant on Sunday. I had sore breasts, mild nausea, and bad skin (have 3 children so not a stranger to this.)

DH and I have had sex once in months - and my instant panic over being pregnant and with the immediate effect on finances and family, I rang BPAS and booked an appointment for next week.

This morning I've started bleeding really heavily with clots, tonight I did another test and it was negative. Part of me feels relieved the choice was made for me, the other part feels a tiny bit sad, even if I don't really have any right to.

I hadn't told DH about the positives and I don't suppose there's any point telling him now - I guess I just wanted to tell someone.

There's no way the pregnancy would be viable after soaking through pads, and the negative test confirms it. I'm not sure what I'm after here. Maybe anyone else with a similar experience?

Hopeful bump.

Any one?

Sorry you went through that.

I’ve had both a termination and a miscarriage.

It sounds to me that you have had a miscarriage.
Unfortunately they are a lot more common than you think.
But without meaning to be harsh it’s worked out for the best in your case.

Hope you’re ok x

Sorry to hear that ☹️ I had a chemical last month too.

Is this telling you that you really would like to be pregnant, even if it doesn’t seem like the most practical thing? Have you and your DH talked about having another child?

Years ago a gynaecologist told me she thought I was pregnant as she could see the beginnings of a pregnancy on ultrasound (I was there for an ovary scan) and my period also happened to be late. My period came a few days later and I was absolutely devastated- felt really silly also for crying over a pregnancy that never actually existed. But it made me realize how much I really did want to be pregnant and become a mum. I got pregnant with DD a little while later

Thank you both for replying. I feel very relieved to be honest - and guilty for feeling so. I'm still bleeding although not as heavy, but still heavier than a period. Hoping things get back to normal soon.

I definitely don't want another baby. Those 4/5 days of knowing I had the positive test and everything that would come from it, made me feel so anxious about it all. I'm just glad that things righted themselves as such, and that I don't have to have this secret about a decision I made.

It's a mixed bunch of feelings really. I haven't told anyone and I probably won't now.

Thank you both.