Hi guys I NCd for this in case my situation is recognisable.
I'm almost 33, been married for 3 years and I'm pregnant by accident. I'm on the pill amd have taken it religiously, so i have no idea how.
I'm devastated. I never wanted to be pregnant, i hadn't ruled out a family 100% but i have no interest in bearing children. I suppose i haven't ruled it out in the same way you can never say you won't one day fall in love with someone of the same sex. Or can never say 'oh my husband would never cheat'. Or can never imagine yourself losing your job and becoming homeless. Seems impossible but it can happen i guess.
Anyway i think my husband will come to terms with an abortion (he knows i don't want children) but i just feel like everyone, society, will think me a monster.
We have a very high household income, a house in london and a BTL flat. We could afford a nanny.
There's ostensibly no reason not to have a baby apart from i feel physical revulsion at the thought of something inside me.
I feel like a monster for feeling this way. Would love to hear from anyone who has terminated a pregnancy for convenience and managed to forgive themselves