Hi I'm new to all this but I could really do with some advise. It's a bit of a long one. I recently found out I'm pregnant again this will my 5th child. My youngest is only 7 months. I have twins and an older child.
(They only have a 15month age cap between the older three). When I told my partner and he basically ordered me to get and abortion the thing is I have always said I couldn't go through with one. (He knew this since we fell pregnant with our first). We had a couple of miscarriages when trying to conceive our youngest and the thought of experiencing something like that again from my own actions just fills me with fear and heartache. I feel like I'm being selfish for not wanting to go through with one. We're high school sweethearts and the father to all my children. He saw how much the miscarriages affected me and can't understand why he would want to see that again. I tried to explain that I haven't got over them and I'm always thinking about them. It's silly but if I see a baby that would of been a similar age them it can set it all off again. I'm starting to feel resentful towards him, we were using protection but one night it split so he must of known there was a risk. The thing is I know I can do it as I've done it before mostly alone (as he's away working) it's very hard work but do able. I'm rambling now. Just wondering is anyone has experienced anything similar and could offer some advise. Thankyou in advance xx