Not sure I can continue my pregnancy, but not sure I can end it either

[BeauxReves]

I’m totally heartbroken to be in this situation. And I have no idea what to do. I have already cancelled one termination appointment so reluctant to make another unless I’m 100% sure.

I have no one to talk to so feel really alone. My boyfriend said he would understand if I terminated as it’s due to his behaviour but now says he won’t come with me to the clinic. It would also mean the end of our relationship. Which might not be such a bad thing. But I love him inspite of his lies. I feel like I’m stuck in a bad dream that I can’t wake up from.

You love him in spite of his lies and are looking at termination because of his behaviour...? At the risk of sounding harsh your relationship doesn't sound like one to bring a child into.

But termination is an entirely different thing. Based on the above you need to assume I think you will be bringing baby up alone. How do you feel about that? Surely you have a termination because you don't want to be pregnant/ feel that you cannot cope with a baby not because of your boyfriend being a bit of a loser?

So the question is do you want to go ahead and have this baby?

I ththink I would find it very difficult on my own with another baby. I already have children and practically there isn’t space in the house for another. And financially it would be very hard too.

So that may well be your answer I think. But you need to take this man out of the equation either way. It is your decision not his and he doesn't sound like a long term prospect to me.

No I’m really not sure he is a long term prospect, however much I might like to believe that he is.

The pregnancy is your decision. But please raise your standards and lose this man.