Try and take every day as it comes - What a friend said to me, when I terminated at 12 weeks is that 'time is a great healer'.. whilst I honestly, couldn't believe it was true as I felt SO bad... she was right, it really does help.
I was far more worried about the physical changes in my body and the bleeding and pain - when actually, that was absolutely fine... what I wasn't prepared for in any way, was how I felt afterwards..... relief, then guilt, and even thought I know I did the right thing for me... I felt empty, really, really empty.
I found it really helpful to talk about it to supportive friends and non-judgemental family... I didn't feel ashamed, but I felt so much guilt. I said to my friend that I would never, ever judge another womans choice... however I couldn't give myself that support and just felt so guilty over my actions - I thought I could rationalise it and look logically at what I had done, but that's taken 9 months and even now, I'm not fully over it.
What I'm trying to say in a bad way is... you feel how you feel - there is nothing wrong with how you're feeling and you shouldn't feel you can't talk to your partner or anyone else you want support from.
Take one day at a time and be kind to yourself 