I am 19 and currently admitted to hospital for a well established eating disorder. I have untreated ptsd, and polysubstance abuse disorder on top of depression and my ED. I am awaiting the results of a pregnancy test. I cannot have a baby right now. At the same time I feel like I could change a lot in 9 months. I've been clean from all substances 2 weeks tomorrow. I feel like in hours I'll be taking those little pills to terminate. I don't want to make the wrong decision. I remember the predisposition I had when I was born due to my mother's untreated ptsd and eating disorder and I don't want that for my maybe baby. I want to give my baby the best possible foundation when the time comes but I feel like I have some ways to go first. Help help help