Hi all. I'm new here and one of the reasons I joined is because I just don't know where to turn. I've been seeing a man that I met off a dating site since May time. From then until now he has constantly messed me around, told me he wants a relationship with me and then changed his mind and generally just playing games with me. We had a huge argument not long ago, and I stopped all contact with him. He then contacted me a week later promising me the world and me feeling vulnerable (because I really did like him) let him back in.
Now I've not been on any contraception for a long time and stupidly since we met we haven't use condoms a lot but used the 'pulling out method' basically the night he came around he told me that he was going to do his business in me (sorry TMI) and I told him no. He thought it was a huge joke, layed there and laughed at me and told me he had finished. I was mortified. He gave me the money to get the morning after pill and then left. I took the morning after pill the next day and didn't think anything of it.
Well fast forward to 3 weeks later I've just found out I'm pregnant! So the pill hasn't worked! I've contacted him and all he says is to get a termination and when I told him I don't think I can do that he's now blocked my number and won't talk to me at all :(
I'm so lost for what to do, I am already a single mum to an 18 month old who sees her dad at weekends which gives me a much needed break but I don't think this man will ever want to be involved. I'm petrified and I feel so alone. I have support of my friends and family but I feel like my life is just crumbling around me. Will I cope with 2 young children as a single mum??? I just don't think I can face a termination, I'm already wondering if it's a boy or a girl and feeling maternal. I would just love some advice or comforting words. I'm also worried what people are going to say about me, I don't want rumours going around about me as people don't know my situation :(
Can anyone help? Or has anyone been in a similar situation?