The reason we terminated last week was because we simply couldn't afford for me to give up work, and our 2 children are very young (one has special needs).
We agreed that perhaps in years to come we would TTC, even though prior to this we said we wouldn't have another, the whole experience has rocked both our feelings on the matter.
I was relieved when DH said it first, i thought I was the only one. We would prefer to wait until the children are both at school and we can review everything then.
Now it seems so far away. It feels like that time will be the only thing that particially heals my heart from all this pain. I know everything is still raw and my head says everything was the right thing.
I never ever ever thought I'd be saying any of this :( It feels wrong to feel this way. I simply want what I can't have.